Wednesday, July 22, 2009

False Alarm

July 13th was my nth prenatal checkup schedule in San Juan De Dios Hospital, I have told my OB that my lower abdomen is painful this past few days. She checked my cervix and found out that it was already open. She advised me to take Isoxilan, a drug that makes that baby hold onto the womb and be on bed rest for 3 days because my baby was just 35 weeks and 3 days, not yet full-term.

After bed rest and medication, I went to the office to work already. July 18th, around 11:00 in the morning, I felt something came out from me. When I checked, it was a discharge that looks like mucus from a runny nose, yellow then became brown discharge. Since it’s my first pregnancy, I’d informed my supervisor; he accompanied me in the clinic together with my friend, and informed the nurse. The nurse advised me to go home and have an OB consultation which I did. The OB from Casa Medica told me that my cervix is already open, 2 cm in particular and 50% dilated, I was advised to go to San Juan de Dios. I went to Emergency Room since the OB Consultation is already close in the Out Patient Department. I thought I’m going to deliver the baby that day. Unfortunately, it wasn’t time yet. Yes, the cervix is already 2 cm open and 60% dilated but the baby’s time to see the world has not come yet. I still have to wait.

I’m kind of’ upset because I am really excited to see my baby, but I had learned to accept the fact that I will see my little angel in due time. I have to be patient.

My next prenatal checkup will be on July 27th. Just wish me luck and pray for my safe delivery.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Fears of the Expectant Dad

I and my husband, Naj, talked about his fears since I’m almost on my last month of pregnancy. That anytime now, I will be delivering the baby to this world. Here are some of his fears:

Financial / Security Fears

He has been asking himself if he can protect or provide for his family. Before I got pregnant, his income is more than enough for the two of us but now that the baby is coming, it will definitely stretch our budget.

Fear for me and our child's health

He is worried about the postpartum syndrome, a depression that affects women after childbirth. He hopes that he can provide emotional security because I might experience dramatic emotional shifts. He’s also worried about his child’s health. He just want the baby to be healthy.

Physical Appearance of the Baby

Since he will have a baby girl, he doesn’t want his baby girl to inherit his skin color. Of course, he would like her to have a pleasant appearance.

Relationship Fear

Once the baby is born, he fears that he might and I might love the baby more than anyone. That our love for each other and our communication will be lessened since we’ll be focusing more on the baby.

I understand where my husband is coming from because as an expectant mom, I also have my own fears. I just hope that our love with each other will be strengthen for the coming our little angel, Jula.